Random thoughts since I haven't posted in a month

 So... my life is really full between working full time and caring for my mom part time, and doing church and maybe an occasional date here or there... so I haven't had time to blog, or even to think very much, I just feel I don't have much time for many things I enjoy... this is what happens when you don't work for over half a year and don't have much you have to do except care for your mom, when you start working again it's a rude awakening of not having enough time like most people.  Well, I need to do better about getting up early to get things done as well... I really do prefer and want to be a morning person, but it's hard to get there.  I really do like my job though, I wouldn't trade it!  And I chose wisely, it's a small local business that won't force a certain vaccine on me anytime soon. 

I'm doing a missions training at my church, which the ironic thing is, in the past I hated living here so much I wanted an escape and saw going overseas as a potential escape, but it never worked out for me to go. Now, I want to stay here, and it would just be funny if the Lord said it's time to go. I don't know what the future holds at all. I am enjoying a tiny bit of normalcy before the sh*t hits the fan, so to speak. I think society is going to devolve soon enough, and there are multiple ways it could happen that others speculate on. But, I may be in an isolation camp for COVID next year for all I know. They are preparing those for vaccine refusers. Maybe we'll be raptured away by then. Or we'll be in the wilderness. I'm not sure. I know the Lord gave me this year. 

There may be a chance if you got the vaccine you'll still be raptured, I'm not sure.  There's also a good chance if you got the vaccine you will turn into a zombie. When that happens you can't say I didn't warn you to not get that shot. 

Soon, they will come out with the snake patch, they will say it will be an all in one vaccine, and who all knows what else it will be. This, I beg you friends, do not take it, do not play with your eternity, start gossiping about it and warning people to not take it or get it, because I think it will change you and your eternity for the worse. 

I'll try to post more, when my brain thinks a bit more deeply again. 

I will say this... I won floor seats to a Hornets game at work a week ago, and sadly I don't have any friends to invite. I invited a guy I like who lives in TX, and he may be able to come, but thinking about a relationship with him living in TX hurts. I have another new guy friend who loves sports and would love to come. Maybe he'll work. But, it's just sad that I've lost so many friends this year. I may be better at burning bridges than I realized, too good, I need to you know, lose that skill. But, I don't know how to go back with those friends either. I still think the vaccine is part of the MOTB. I don't know, it's really awkward, I have no real support for what I'm doing. So... whoever, if you're still keeping up with this blog, say a prayer for me, for that, for direction with this blog/things to post, time management... I feel I'm praying against incubus all the time, or thinking about how I need to more, all the time, which is not a balanced mind at all. I will say though, I am grateful for every moment of life I'm given. If FEMA is in store for me, pray for strength, courage, wisdom... 

Blessings to all who've read this

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