Some departing thoughts to wrap up this blog and assurance in the future there will be another blog :)

 

Dear Reader –

Thanks for sticking it out with me the past year. Has it been a year since I started this blog? Wow.  I was inspired, still had a manic buzz, zealous, and kinda crazy. I’m unfortunately none of those things anymore… well the crazy part is in the air, but people that know me might say I’ve always been crazy… as much as I wanted to teach, at the moment I feel inadequate in that role.  It seems what I used to be sure of I’m not sure of anymore, and what I think I believe now I need to solidify, and it’s hard to make time to really study the way I’d like to. I mean I love breaking out my concordance with the Greek and Hebrew definitions, and, there’s so much more history I’d like to know.

 

I think about this blog a lot, like so much. And mostly I can’t think of anything to write. The few times I do think of something to write, I can’t find the time to write. Which is so sad, I left working full time to work part time and have time, but my part time job has been more commitment than my full time job, and I’m about to leave it but I’ll feel bad leaving, but I can’t handle it anymore on top of caring for my mom.

I may start another blog, and if I do, I’ll leave it on a final post on here, so you can find me again. I’m going to focus on writing a book. Pray for me about it. I swing from excitement to discouragement so quickly it seems. I’m particularly discouraged right now at my medication effects seeming to paralyze me in the night when I need energy to get up and pray. I feel like I can’t get enough rest, I’m always tired. And I’m out of shape in every way, and that doesn’t help me feel energized and ready to go. I have so many mind shifts I need to take to put my momentum in a positive direction again. All I can think of is the regret I feel for eating in my dreams so much.  (If you didn’t know, eating in your dreams is a bad omen, often a sign of witchcraft, meant to steal your destiny, and if you do so you need to pray that God cancels it immediately and work to build your spirit man by fasting and prayer.)  I just feel I don’t have the energy to pray these prayers every day for so long. And I get tired of fasting. I am spiritually weak.

Anyhow, I did have some thoughts I wanted to share, but I’m getting tired.  I am sorry this blog devolved into my own fears about the future that’s coming. I didn’t mean for it to have taken that turn. But I don’t want the pressure of feeling bad for not keeping up with this anymore.

Jonathan Kleck has an interesting blog you could check out. He is very interesting, He is a prophet, He has different gifts for sure.  He has a gift of sight I’ve never known of before. I don’t know if I agree with all his theology, but I can’t deny his gift. But, he keeps up with his blog actually. So follow him if you want, in the meantime. I’ll let you know if I start a new blog.  http://www.jonathankleck.com/

I DO HOPE, whoever you are, that you’ve gotten some food storage.  You will not regret having it, but you will regret not having it.  I regret not being in a position financially to have gotten it myself, but goodness I’ve made some interesting choices to live with.  (Buy some big bags of rice at least, they should last a while and are still relatively cheap…)

I promise this is not goodbye, but see ya later. There will be a better blog in the future.  

Blessings,

Stacy Lane