Dang it it's back

 Spirit husband began attacking last night. I knew it was coming. But, pray that I can take authority again over it. I was in the best position in February March and April of last year. But I was also in the hospital in February and scared mom to death, and mom now associates these  beliefs with me going crazy. I did find an American woman with a deliverance ministry, so you can pray the online course I signed up to take with her would be effective. It's different. I need a mentality shift. Maybe I'm too discouraged with this. I give up the fight because it seems I never win. I'm really just tired. 


So pray for me, I thought 2021 was the year the battle would resolve and I'd find victory. Maybe it will be an ongoing battle. Which is fine if I'm equipped to fight. That's where I'm failing in the battle. There's chinks in my armor. My faith is weak. I'm spiritually depleted from being so busy and not praying or reading scripture. 


Okay... I guess I'm tuning in online to the MFM NYE service. I texted the pastor about it but he didn't respond. If I find out its in person I'm going. I hope you find a special way to ring in the new year. If you join MFM have two bottles of olive oil with you!  



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