What a strange call to ministry...

So... this is not really the way I would have chosen to go into ministry.  I would have preferred the more typical go to seminary and pray about your mission field path. This whole, having breakdowns and going to the hospital just wouldn't have been my idea.  After all, when that happens, people just write you off as crazy.  And, maybe I am.  I mean, people that know about the VAX and are warning, they will tell you I am crazy and there's nothing redeemable once you've taken this shot. They'd say I'm offering a false hope, and I'll face eternally hot consequences for that. So, I'm displaced from the tribe of people who know the truth. Then there are those so pro-vaccine they'd never question anything like this and won't believe me, and will even hate me for what I'm saying.  So, I'm going to get hate from a lot of sides for this blog. 

But, I don't want to be like Jonah this time around either. I've definitely been Jonah a lot of my life. Basically, I've had a really bad attitude about my lot for a long time. I wasted so much energy just being miserable. I keep thinking, how sad! God didn't give me salvation for me to just be miserable with my circumstances, He gave me new life to give me joy in the midst of every circumstance. And He desires for me to find my joy and happiness and satisfaction in Him anyway, so that circumstances don't even matter that much in the end. 

I'm not seminary trained, and I own more books than I've actually read, I certainly feel inadequately prepared for this as far as my knowledge of the prophetic in the Bible. But, that's often how God likes things to be, uncomfortable so we're relying on Him to grow. 

So... I'll try to be more consistent with my posts. I've got no excuse not to. Which, is very strange. I want to work, but... the doctors told me to give my brain a good year to rest. So... that is really hard.  There are so many job opportunities I'm passing on because they're full time and I know would be too much for me to handle. Finding the right PT opportunity however is going to be tricky. The place I wanted to work is putting pressure on employees to get this evil VAX. I'm sure that will trickle to all employers soon enough.  Except for maybe some churches that are in the know. Unfortunately, those are few and far between. 

The more self sufficient you are, the better off you're going to fare this next season we enter into as a human race. The more reliant you are upon the government, well, you're in trouble. This is going to be a time, an opportunity, for the church to shine in taking care of it's own. 

I do want to take a second here, and say, again, I've no idea how the rapture will work, for all I know we're all Tribulation Saints, we just haven't experienced tribulation here in America the way the rest of the world has and is currently facing. So, I may wind up in a FEMA camp with you. I'm preparing for whatever suffering the Lord has for me. It's easier to face death, as Spurgeon said, when you've already died daily to yourself. I'm not a speculative person, I don't like to say, this will definitely happen, or make predictions, but I will say, prepare however you can. It does seem like, we'll be in for trouble when food shortages really hit here. Think toilet paper was a fiasco? We've not seen anything yet. But, I will say this, many of us have never known what it was like for the Israelites having to rely on God to provide manna every day when they were in the wilderness. I think soon we are going to find out. Just remember, God did provide what they needed each day. I don't know what or how that provision will look like for you. I also don't know that the provision will always meet every material need you have. When faced with hunger Jesus told the devil man does not live by bread alone but by the Word of God. If you've never been in the practice of fasting, now may be a good time to start. 

If you have loved ones that don't know the Gospel, please be sharing with them. Someone told me heaven is under construction, and I asked him, can I help? I did World Changers, I know how to hammer and paint... but I think this is a spiritual construction underway. In fact sharing the Gospel, shouldn't be limited to your loved ones. This really should be everyone in your sphere of influence that needs the Gospel. Neighbors, co-workers, etc. 

I don't know in what area of life you've been like Jonah, where you've ran away from what God has called you to do, but He's giving you another opportunity to obey if you're reading this, so stop running away from Him and run towards all that He has, there you'll find all that you need.