Deliverance Part One

 

Lessons on Deliverance

So, I’m in the process of self-deliverance, if you haven’t figured that out from my other posts. My time at the hospital was so great, I let my guard down and was half heartedly doing things when I got home… I knew from Pastor Stephen I needed to be praying prayers to break curses and break covenants every day (he said for 2 hours a day!) and I would more alternate days, pray for one thing one day and the other the next, and not even pray every single day. Although there were mornings I’d gotten up early to bind the strongman, and use the blood of Jesus as a weapon, and there was one night I’d been feeling super weak all day, wondering if I was sick, couldn’t do anything, and oddly I sensed beforehand that I’d be doing battle that night, and sure enough, I was attacked in my dream, and I had to get up and pray against spirit husband. So, it wasn’t like I wasn’t fighting at all, I just, wasn’t super disciplined probably.  But I started to sense things again last week, (details are not appropriate,) and realized I needed to get more serious, so last Thursday I prayed to break covenants, tried to sleep, woke up and bound the strongman, tried to sleep, woke up and prayed against spirit husband, and then, was still attacked. So I was like, huh, I better get serious, and prayed for two hours Friday to break covenants and curses with the prayers from Mountain Fire Ministries, and then prayed to break destructive covenants with the prayers from Fire Power Ministries. Well, the attack just intensified, and grew worse over the weekend, I didn’t sleep much Sunday night. I found myself back at Fire Power Ministries home page, and they said for intense problems, fast for 10 days, (from 6:00am – 6:00pm, don’t worry I’m not going to starve), and pray the appropriate prayer every day.  So I began my ten day fast yesterday. Oddly, I would have thought I should start the day out praying those prayers, but I sensed the Lord telling me get up and take a shower, and then go walk while it’s still cool. So, I did, the shower felt really good, and so did the walk. When I walk, usually I’m praying. When I had my ipod I was singing and dancing. But, yesterday, as I walked, I wanted to sing but wasn’t thinking of any good praise songs myself, I think I was singing Great is thy Faithfulness as I began… but I was praying for the fire of God to come down and burn all the unclean things out of my life, and a song came out. I’ll attach it at the end.

What I’m learning about deliverance is, it’s a process.  Especially when you’re dealing with a stronghold you’ve had for 11 plus years. I can’t just pray one day and expect the issue to go away.  We all want a quick fix, but for these problems a quick fix won’t do. I’ve known that, but I think my problem in the past has been discouragement.

When I don’t see things happen immediately, I think, why am I even fighting this battle? But, Pastor Stephen shared wisdom with me before I went into the hospital. He spoke about discouragement being a deadly serious weapon of the enemy. In Numbers 21:5-9, the Israelites complain in discouragement about their food, and the Lord sent deadly serpents to kill them! They repented and God showed them mercy with Moses making a pole with a bronze serpent for them to look to, and if they were bit, they would look to the pole and live. When you are easily discouraged, you don’t go far. You hear the voices of the enemy, and that becomes a witness.

The woman with the blood discharge suffered for 12 years, spending all she had at doctors trying to get better, but getting worse.  If she had let discouragement stop her, well, she would have missed the miracle, but she didn’t, she reached out and touched Jesus’ cloak, and finally got deliverance from her disease.

Discouragement is a bad witness. Ruth did not get discouraged.  Being discouraged is dangerous.

God has a timing for everybody, and a purpose. When satan attacks, push ahead! There is no problem without a solution, just focus ahead.

Don’t be discouraged with doubt, let God do something new!

Now, I’ve watched many YouTube videos of people sharing how they found deliverance, and videos of deliverance sessions. I recommend Dr. Stella’s videos, but if you watch the ones about incubus/succubus, be prepared for some vomiting. They’ve all been helpful. I’ll probably watch more. But, I also realized I need to do some things my own way. 

Something I learned from J.D. Greear is the importance of praying scripture. One of my favorite sermons of his on prayer deals with all of these points as well. Here are my main notes from the sermon:

***Our prayer should be characterized by DISCIPLINE.

            Prayer is our strength. Prayer releases God’s power.

Our prayer should be characterized by DEFIANCE.

            Effective prayer begins when you perceive the gap between where a situation is and where God wants it to be.

The strength of our prayers to God are entirely dependent on our knowledge of the Word of God.

            Prayers that start in heaven are heard by heaven. If you want the help of heaven you must learn to listen to the words of heaven.

            Daniel was willing to pray and persist in prayer until God answered. He prayed 60 years for Israel’s captivity to Babylon to end.

Our prayers should be characterized by ENDURANCE.

            Daniel was willing to be thrown into the lion’s den before he’d stop praying. ***

Wow, I need to listen to that sermon again! So, I decided yesterday to type up scriptures of my own to pray before I went into the prayer points of the prayers they’d supplied.

My last note I’ll make on the deliverance process for now is, appeal to God’s glory.  His name is at stake. His purposes for my life are what’s at stake. His power is what is on display. I want Him to get the glory for delivering me from this problem that completely overwhelms me.  If I’m fighting in my own strength to make myself look good, I’ve lost the battle completely.  But if God is fighting for me, and His name is what is at stake, I know He is going to rescue me. I know His desire is for me to experience complete deliverance and freedom in Him, so that I can do great things for Him! He is still using me in surprising ways, but oh my goodness, there is more to be had I know, and I want it!  I want Him so so much.

Yesterday I was struggling. I was going under, and I prayed to God last night even, I was like, I am weak, I cannot fight what I’m experiencing, when I go to bed tonight in your mercy can you just knock me out so I get a good night’s sleep and don’t go manic again?  And I am appealing to His glory constantly in this.

I got a good night’s sleep.

Fire of the living God

Fire of the living God

Pour down on me

Pour down on me

Fire of the living God

Fire of the living God

Pour down on me

Pour down on me

I want to see You move in mighty ways

I want to feel Your presence more every day

Fire of the living God

Fire of the living God

Pour down on me

Pour down on me

God You are faithful, God you are true

God won’t You come and do what only You can do

Fire of the living God

Fire of the living God

Pour down on me

Pour down on me

Lord I want to see Your Glory fall

Lord I want to see Your hand

            Tear down every wall

Father let Your will be done

Father let Your kingdom come

When You say move, I’ll move

When You say stay, I’ll stay

This is my year of deliverance

This song did not come to me by chance

Fire of God

Fire of God

Fire of God

Fire of God

Pour

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