Gotta Love That Nutella!

 Okay, don't go to the hospital unless you're really really manic!  It's much more fun, I promise.  Also don't go expecting spiritual problems to be solved by modern medicine.  I went mostly to get sleep. It was getting so bad I'd yelled at my mom for the first time in a really long time. Anyhow I've still got a long haul ahead dealing with my issues with the spirit husband and strongman and whatever else is trying to hold me down. It's just, when I was manic in February I'd gained an edge.  Still, people don't want me flying that high. Maybe they should try it like me.  I did have a better radio this time, which was nice. Oh, I was a little sad, they didn't even have inspirational group today, of all the groups that's my favorite.  The hospital did seem a bit darker to me. I actually think the other reason I went back was Project Rooftop - to try to prevent them from getting this patch that's coming out soon. I left a note with my nurse ...

 I'm having a breakdown, and I have nowhere else to go to safely deal with what I need to deal with. However, my mom won't have the help she needs if I go in... but I really feel I need to go.  This will be interesting. My mom knows things are wrong, but she has no idea the extent of what's going on. She just thinks I'm having trouble sleeping. I was going to Raleigh Saturday to get some more olive oil blessed by Pastor Stephen, and go to their deliverance prayer session. But, I don't know that I can wait that long to get help.  I'm at a breaking point. Anyhow... I would like to go to the hospital today. I don't plan on going to the PHP after, because I don't feel that's what I need this time. Is it bad, my plan is, to go to the hospital, refuse my meds a few days, until they tell me they'll have to give me shots, and then let them give me shots. Meanwhile, I'll have lots of time to pray, which I don't have at home. It'd be ideal if I...